I have taken a few days to wait and see how things have come along. I have been hoping to see cool things come out of my vBlog and I have been more than happy with the results. There have been trolls and criticism but nonetheless, I feel proud of everything.
2016 is going to be a positive change. I am going to push myself to make it a great year. I will not give in to the fear or sadness that so often tries consume me.
I have gotten a notebook to keep with me at all times, to write down ideas and to keep track of things going on around me. Again, always trying to keep the creative juices flowing. Its been helpful writing things down to keep them from fading or forgetting. I have enjoyed writing this past year and a half on here and it has brought back some of the artistic side of myself I have not seen in a long time.
I have been reading online about how when we have depression from a younger age, we don’t necessarily develop a personality. Not being able to identify or relate to anything makes it to were we cannot know who we really are. Its crazy, but I have seen myself enjoy things I have not in years. I see myself gaining new opinions and I just cannot believe it is from me. I feel I have stolen so many opinions and feelings from others because I could not form many of them myself. I see myself truly believing in what I think. I am standing up for myself.
I know 2016 has had a rough start with a lot of celebrity deaths and other craziness. I know that I will have rough times. All I can say is stand strong. I hope my encouragement will help you as it has helped me.
Hug a pony my friends.