So stressed today. My head is about to explode. I have a headache that could kill a horse. At my job today I had to make phone calls to 11 other managers, find out how to work a new computer system, interview 8 people, train someone on how to do group interviews, and still take care of guests and all my other very busy day work. I am beyond stressed out.

The problem is that it is about to be a busy time of the year for us. I will not have time to slow down and rest. This is also a time when the weather changes, which also makes me sick. I was hoping to not get a cold or anything (Ebola eek!).

All that said I am very proud that I made it through the first part of my day. I am holding steady for now. I am hugging a pony while type.

So I have been commenting on how I have doing well these past 2 weeks. Next time remind me to knock on wood. Today was rough. Work was pilled on me in ways I didn’t think possible. I worked late last night and then early this morning. My delivery driver was moved from my route and I have a new one to train up for the holidays. Customers were very short and rude. My legs hurt from being on my feet for 20 of the least 24 hours. I am drained in a way I haven’t been in awhile. My mind has shut down for the moment. Going to go curl up with a pony. So tired.

So Today I got a promotion at work. I will now be a training manager! I have worked hard at being available to do this already and now I get recognized in this! There is no extra pay and it is a ton more work but it is another notch in my belt. I have been doing better with my depression here the last week or so (right after my brush with the Positive days) and it looks to be paying off!

Now to go hug a pony,

I love a good find. I love when I see something that I have been looking for or not looking for but just REALLY REALLY want. Its also better when I have the money to buy it. I happen to find a few Megaman and Zelda manga books today. Also, a friend at the used book store found and held some My Little Pony comics that came through. The smell of good books is intoxicating. Now to lose myself in them.

I enjoy a good discussion. I love to talk about and debate about things. What I do not enjoy is people being hateful to me or those around me. I have started to mute those who do so. I have started a purge on Facebook and other sites. I have tried to back away from anyone who tries to be forceful in a discussion. I will love and tolerate still. Brony on my friends. Hug a pony!

I have been a lot better over the last few days. I have been stressed and wrung out but I am handling it well. I had a nice talk with my employees and friends and evidently I have not been smiling much. Time to think like Pinky Pie and Smile Smile Smile.

1. My big Plush my wife and daughters bought me. It has helped me through some dark times.

2. A close friend who invited me over for dinner. We talked through some stuff and had a great time!

3. I have had a positive for the past 7 days! It has really helped. I am very happy and am smiling again.

1. I have a possible promotion at work.

2. I survived my interview for said promotion.

3. I get to sleep soon.

1. I have some awesome in-laws.

2. The state fair was fun.

3. My legs are still attached.

This is a hard one.

1. I am breathing. I have not stopped. I can still breath in and out. This is a good thing.

2. I may have a possible promotion (with no pay increase) at work.

3.  I care. For people, places. I just care for things. I want to do what is right. I will kill myself trying to do what is right. I will physically harm myself if I think it will help someone. If I care for someone enough, I will travel to the ends of the world.