poetry

Ode to a Life Now Gone

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Gone forever, my life of dreams
behind the bend forgotten
seeing all these memories
that have since turned rotten

Echoing inside my head
My happiness now lost
this empty chamber, hollow now
remembering the cost

Of feelings and empty loneliness
gathering in me still
crashing waves of hopelessness
attack, intent to kill

My mind is shut and signs are out
Don’t open, dead inside
Is normal a possibility?
Or just some foolish pride

Down I go, into the black
drowning forevermore
My heart is stopped, joy all gone
This life now falling to the floor

Hope will fade and shadows call
In this world of night
Darkness has consumed me
My life was never right

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-Sleeping-

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Hide hide, eyes behind, the lids of ever night

Drifting in the sea of peace, away from any fright

Sleep sleep, so tenderly, away from all my tears

Sleep sleep, so sweetly here, beyond man’s petty fears

Away away, to peaceful land of joy evermore

Joyous just to stay right here, resting to my core

Hide hide from the night, in blankets warm and snug

Away away from the day, and this hole I have dug

Safe safe from troubles here, beyond the devil’s reach

Rest Rest for you and me, protected from any breach

Mellow Mellow my soul, so dear, against life’s horrid quake

Stay stay against the chance, that you might ever wake

No no, you slowly slip, from this gentle grace

Goodbye goodbye, you fall away, to the world now you face

Self care day 20:Cleansing

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One of the things I have learned in traveling a bit is to clean the house before you leave. Coming home to a clean house, where everything is put away and you have a place to relax is amazing after a trip. My mother used to have us clean any time we left so we could come home, sit down and relax. It is some of the best travel advice I have gotten.

That and finding the proper amount to tip the TSA agent for groping me.

I am not a very tidy person. I have been known to be a bit messy. My desk at the moment is covered end to end with books, bills, papers, medications, and toy ponies. My bedside table has several books on it, some I have not read in over 2 weeks. I drive my wife nuts as I am still trying to attempt to take my clothes to the hamper.

I am not proud of it.

Now, There are times when I get in a fit and can’t stand it anymore. I see the clutter and the mess and I have to clean. Everything. Pick things up, straighten up, whatever it takes to bring discord into order.

I have felt it help my mental state so much.

Some days are harder than others at getting around the house. The weather at the moment is turning stormy and I can feel it in my body aches. However, I know that if I take some time and do a deep cleaning of the house, dusting vacuuming, scrubbing my desk down, I know that it will improve my mental state vastly. My wife likes to clean when she is stressed out because it helps her focus. Seeing the mess is a constant reminder of the fact it needs to be picked up and put away. Getting it done is a fantastic way to ease some burdens off the mind.

I have found that after a good house cleaning that taking a long hot shower helps relax you further. Sometimes it isn’t just mental clutter that needs to be picked up. It is a real mess that needs it.

And that is something you can control and fix.

You can control and fix something.

And it can effect you, mentally.

#hugapony my friends.

It is always a pleasure bring you more day to day posts. I will continue to do so until the end of February. Please make sure to comment, share and follow along as I share some simple things to better your life!

Self care day 6:Picnic Baskets

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Thank you for joining me on the grand undertaking. There is going to be a lot of work for me and  I hope to be able to keep up. Please make sure to comment, share and follow along as I share some simple things to better your life!

I enjoy the outdoors when bugs are not in the air or when it is not a million degrees. When that temperature is just right, outside or at the park can be just the thing to help calm down. When the breeze is just right and you can sit on a bench and never want to leave.

How can we capture that?

Picnics. (My Yogi Bear side wants to say Pic-a-nic baskets).

Like most of what I have talked about, this does require some planning. Finding a good day, when the weather is right, taking time aside from work, friends, or family (or invite them along if you want). This takes some effort but imagine that peace you feel being outside and everything in the universe feels perfect for a moment and imagine that moment lasting longer.

We look at picnics in movies or our mindscapes as date opportunities or special occasions. I look at this and say, take yourself on a date. Find some time, pack a sandwich (or bottle of wine if that is your thing) and make a date of it. There is nothing wrong with being by yourself outside and relaxing.

This is you. Outside at peace. Not a human doing, a human being.

Just be.

Be at peace.

Let the moment last long as you want because you planned for it.

Enjoy it.

#hugapony my friends.

Poetry session

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I started writing when I was about 8 years old. It all started with a poem about tree frogs. It was not the greatest or most earth shattering poem but it was mine and I was proud of it. Poetry is not my main form of writing (though I have been known to crank out a time Limerick or two).

So I found a poem that I wrote a few years ago that came across my Facebook feed. It is again not the greatest buy it is mine and I thought I would share.

-Sleeping-

Hide hide, eyes behind the lids of ever night
Drifting in the sea of peace, away from any fright
Sleep sleep so tenderly, away from all my tears
Sleep sleep so sweetly here, beyond man’s petty fears
Away away to peaceful land, of joy evermore
Tis joy just to stay right here, resting to my core
Hide hide from the night, in blankets warm and snug
Away away from the day, in this hole i have dug
Safe safe from troubles here, beyond the devil’s reach
Rest Rest for you and me, protected from any breach
Mellow Mellow my soul so dear against life’s horrid quake
Stay stay against the chance, that you might ever wake
No no you slowly slip, from this gentle grace
Goodbye goodbye you fall away, to the world now you face

#hugapony
#stuffedtherapy