Here is my second episode of my video blog!!
I just wanted to say my first blog post has reached over 1000 views and I am extremely humbled and in awe. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Please comment, share with everyone, and subscribe! Subscriptions are key for me to reach more people.
And so without further ado, the video!
I attended the most wondrous dance performance at a charming location in my living room. I sat down with my freshly brewed coffee from the local theaters café, some place called Keurig, and was told the show began in about 5 minutes.
The show featured 2 up and coming stars on the ballet scene. The choreography was stellar and intricate. Each dance move thought out with precision and tact. Seeing these young dancers dance must bring so much joy to their father, as I heard they were both sisters. There came an explosion of pixie dust at the end (made from non toxic biodegradable shaved crayons I am assured) that ended the performance. The audience broke out into applause for a full minute as the young dancers took 3 bows before retiring from the stage. All in all.
I got a chance to meet said young dancers backstage after the performance. I got hugs from both and was asked my thoughts on the entire production. I told them it was simply splendid and I could not wait for the next one. They thanked me and hugged me and asked then to play on Minecraft.
I love my daughters.
Hug a spouse, child, sibling, parent, friend, or pony today my friends.
#Hugapony
I have taken a few days to wait and see how things have come along. I have been hoping to see cool things come out of my vBlog and I have been more than happy with the results. There have been trolls and criticism but nonetheless, I feel proud of everything.
2016 is going to be a positive change. I am going to push myself to make it a great year. I will not give in to the fear or sadness that so often tries consume me.
I have gotten a notebook to keep with me at all times, to write down ideas and to keep track of things going on around me. Again, always trying to keep the creative juices flowing. Its been helpful writing things down to keep them from fading or forgetting. I have enjoyed writing this past year and a half on here and it has brought back some of the artistic side of myself I have not seen in a long time.
I have been reading online about how when we have depression from a younger age, we don’t necessarily develop a personality. Not being able to identify or relate to anything makes it to were we cannot know who we really are. Its crazy, but I have seen myself enjoy things I have not in years. I see myself gaining new opinions and I just cannot believe it is from me. I feel I have stolen so many opinions and feelings from others because I could not form many of them myself. I see myself truly believing in what I think. I am standing up for myself.
I know 2016 has had a rough start with a lot of celebrity deaths and other craziness. I know that I will have rough times. All I can say is stand strong. I hope my encouragement will help you as it has helped me.
Hug a pony my friends.
Yes. Finally.
I did it.
I have the video up. I am happy that its up.
I will save my faults that I noticed for another day.
So here is the link!
The links I spoke of are here:
Depression research and links.
I know I m an odd duck. I tend to run against the grain. I like a show about ponies, I dress like a furry, I make friends of all races and backgrounds. I enjoy helping people to the point of giving away anything I have if they need it. I will put myself in the line of suffering if it means lessening that of others. I will hurt myself to help someone else. I am not that eloquent a speaker (except with enough preparedness, at least that is what I am told). I feel my writing is good. I like to hold my plushie when I am sad. So why am I saying all this?
I am trying to ground myself.
I am trying to give myself a place at which I can write, from so I can clear some junk out of my soul.
Cause people are upset with me.
I have several people upset with me. I spoke my heart and they got upset. They took what I said and sharpened the points and threw the words back like a spear.
It always hurts when it comes from someone who is close to you. All of mine came from close people.
It is the new year and I have been asked how long I am going to keep up my “charades”? I must be doing this for the shock factor. My life cannot be like this. Why am I so childish? Why don’t I grow up?
Oh to be in London now the ” haters” are here.
Is it true that you don’t “make it” unless you have hate mail?
I will admit, I have not been a strong person in this area. I am not one that can easily roll things off my back. Part of me caring so much is I get to personally involved. It is easy to get to me.
I happen to think it is one of the reasons I am so lovable, but that’s just me.
I have been under attack for what I like and believe in. I understand that people wont understand everything about me. If people did, then I am just a yes man.
I am just here to say, I am determined to find Joy this year. I was told that happiness is in the moment and that, with my personality, I tend to look toward the time when happiness ends. Joy is something you have to look for and find. It last longer and keeps you going. It is a driving force instead of being in moment. It is ALL the moments because you look for it in each moment.
Now I know that my Joy comes from my faith. I have never been pushy about it, but it is something that I celebrate when it comes time. I give thanks to my God for my Joy.
And I find Joy in my ponies, plushies, and nice furry ears and tail.
Hug a pony my friends.
Puns I know. It is the day after Christmas and my heart aches for my former friends in retail. I am praying for you all as it is a tough day.
Today I am going to try and spread love.
There are many reasons why I am doing this:
It is called upon by my faith. My God has told me to love my neighbor as myself. I will go out of my way to love people. I feel chosen to do this. Even the unlovable ones.
I do it as a brony. Our motto is Love and Tolerate. We love everyone. The haters, the “neigh” sayers (see what I did there, more puns!), the uninformed. We seek out to love each other and all others. We love everyone as a group.
Lastly, I spread love because I need it and I believe the world needs it. I need to know there is love in this world. If I am the only person spreading, then so be it. I can only hope and dream of inspiring people to love more. It can be an act of saying excuse me. It can be letting someone go through a stop sign first. It can be just asking a cashier how there day is doing and thanking them.
Love.
It’s powerful thing.
Hug and love a plushie my friends.
Yes that is a mouthful. I just wanted to come on here and remind you wonderful folks that tonight I will, once again, be on the air with some fellow mates and be doing our weekly radio show. If you haven’t seen any of the shows yet, pop on over to the following link to check them out!
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChxK2xe28ZfO_jxR6FfJ43g
Or at our WordPress:
Come check me out live (or in chat) and bring your pony/plush to hug!! Flutterbat will be there!!
I have noticed a new milestone for me. I have hit that magical number of 200 posts. I want to thank anyone who got me this far. I never thought I would have hit this mark.
I hope I have help some poeple the way this blog has helped me. I started this with the mission of self help and a way of tracking it. It has evolved to more but that still remains the heart of it all.
This blog is for me.
But, it seems, it is now for you as well.
I have been read in 26 countries now. This boggles my mind. I want to thank everyone who has opened (maybe even by accident) this blog. I have been searched on the Googles 85 times. Over 4000 views from when I start this a little over a year ago. Over 2000 different visitors.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
That is a lot of people hugging ponies!
It has been an amazing season for My Little Pony. It has been a roller coaster of a emotion. I recap.
Seeing the Apple and the Pie families come together for the first time in full. The whole thing of two families coming together and the differences of celebrations of holidays and family traditions was informative. It was very inspiring to see.
The Cutie Mark Crusaders, who we have been watching for 5 years, got their cutie marks. They all got to share in an experience that they will share for the rest of their lives. I am not going to lie, I cried. It was something I was waiting for the whole show. seeing their tales (or tails BAH the puns!) come to fruition. I was so Happy.
The 100th episode was AMAZING! The writers took all the fans ideas and thoughts and made them canon in the show. The hit all the high points, confirmed all the characters relationships, and even poured out the Dr Who references with a fire-hose.
The 2nd to last episode, “The Mane Attraction”, was a personal favorite. The music of this episode was bar none. Danny Ingram is fantastic writer of music and I love his work in all the other episodes but this one with Amy Rogers (being her last episode with MLP) was a new high. Amy was leaving to go work for Disney (which also show’s the caliber of the show and its people) and she wanted to leave on a high note.
And wow she did.
Seeing the Finale was, as always, the high point of the season. I will not try and spoil anything but the different takes of the universe was amazing, both for the show and the fandom. Seeing the creators follow up on the 100th episode fan pleasing was fantastic. We all celebrated in the recurrence of all characters coming back in a new role.
It has been an amazing season and I cannot wait for next year (and to re-watch them on Netflix). I love a show that is so lovable. My fandom is fantastic and there are many like it but this one is mine. My daughters and I have this connection for a lifetime.
What show gets your life going?
Hug a pony my friends.
I went home for Thanksgiving. I got to see my whole family for the first time in more than 3 years (and longer than that when were all together). I got to go home to a place that is beyond the boonies.
Let me explain.
Were my family lives is well beyond the country. When I say beyond, The closest Wal-mart is an hour away. In 4 directions. The closest McDonalds is over 20 minutes away. The nearest gas station is 15 minutes away
I am talking far out there.
It is a place of peace and quite. The wind blows and that is all you hear. There is no one for miles that can make enough noises for you to hear.
You can hear yourself think.
You go from a human doing and to a human being.
I got a chance to be at peace, with a pony.
Hug a pony my friends.
My Stuffed Little Therapy 